Sometimes I just want to pack my shit and run away. Not because anyone did anything, not because something is wrong but because I just need some alone time and can’t seem to escape all the people in my life to get that. I am an Aquarius and we enjoy freedom and alone time. But with two kids, a husband, a puppy, full time job, and working out every day I can’t seem to find time for just myself. I wake up and go to the gym, come home and get ready for work, work 8 hours and come home to my kids. My husband works 2nd shift so when I get home it’s straight to mommy duties.
Have you ever felt like you were just going to explode if you don’t get some time to yourself just to think? I am at that point and I just want to run away. I don’t know if it is the Mercury Retrograde that is making me feel so suffocated but I just want to run away.
Sometimes I want to run away. To a place that is quiet unlike my home when the puppy is barking and the kids are running wild and free. Sometimes I just want to run away to a place where there are no husbands because my husband has gotten on my last nerve. Sometimes I want to run away to a place where there is no cellular service so that my phone will not make a noise. I want to run away to place that is dead silent and all I can hear is my inner thoughts.
For the last few days I have felt down because it’s like, “How the hell do I feel like I want to run away, what kind of mother am I?” but as I started writing this I realized that I am a damn good mother because I recognize that I am reaching my breaking point and I recognize that I need some time to myself so that I can be the best mother and wife that I can be. So yes, Sometimes I just want to run away, to get back to feeling good.
Too often we as mothers and women in general put our personal feelings and thoughts on the back burner because we have to. But the reality of it is that sometimes we just want to run away. I don’t think that makes us bad moms. We are human and sometimes we just need a break. If I ran away I have no doubt in my mind I would come back! I love my kids, I love my husband, and I love my life. I just need some time.